Learning to breathe, as walls close in around you

I never knew true anxiety until the moment I lost my hearing. It came in waves, the first couple of times. 5-10 minutes of deafness and vertigo. Then the hearing loss kept lasting longer, until once it just never came back. Those first moments, the first few weeks after, my world had ended. I had no idea how to function or survive. Without a support network, I wouldn’t have.
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No one is alone

I was out walking my dogs last night and ran across our neighbor Jack and his dog Mollie.  Jack and I have been talking for the past 6 months or so and he has a pretty profound hearing loss.  Unfortunately for him, it is getting worse and his audiologist has told him that hearing aids won’t help him – he needs a BAHA (bone-anchored hearing aid).  Last night, he decided to ask me what my surgery was like for my implant and admitted that he’s scared of the BAHA procedure.  This is why I tell my story:  so people like Jack know that they are not alone.
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Another brick falls

Over the past several months, I’ve been in a pretty bad depressive funk, including more social anxiety than usual and having to talk myself out of panic attacks every day before I start work. It hasn’t been easy, and I’ve been dealing with it and seeking treatment. But one thing I have always believed heavily in is the power of positive thought. This weekend I was reminded how much anxiety stems from my hearing and how fabulous, positive people can break through to me.
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All in a day’s work

Some days you go to work and it’s the same old same old. I’ve been doing the same thing in my career for 20 years. The technology changes, but it really is the same every day. At least I’ve always worked at places where what I was doing actually makes a difference in the world, so the monotony has meaning.
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