It’s been over 4 months since my last blog – which is good, in the sense that it means nothing major has changed with my hearing. My LIFE on the other hand… In any case, I did make some pretty major changes to my hearing programs last month, and again earlier this month – and they have pros and cons. One of them being that I cut my music program completely!Read more
I came across an audition notice today for “Clue: The Musical” and for a fleeting moment thought I should audition. Every time I hear about this show, my heart drops a little bit and I feel the sadness of my loss all over again. For many people who are hard-of-hearing, the words “hearing loss” are not used. For me, it is very much a part of me – it was a very big loss in my life that caused depression and PTSD. I don’t believe I would be close to where I am today if I hadn’t fully embraced, grieved, and dealt with that loss. So yes, I am perfectly okay with identifying as a person with hearing loss.
About a year ago, I wrote about going up to Chicago for a Debbie Gibson concert and all of the social anxiety that surrounded me due to my hearing loss, how I almost didn’t get in the car because of it. Today I have a new story so far removed from that I find myself wondering if I’m even the same person I was even just a year ago. Since this is actually a blog about my hearing and not my rock star life, I’ll really try to keep it related to that… maybe.
I’m occasionally known for expressing unpopular opinions on the internet. Here’s another: I don’t really like Adele. I tried, I really did. I like her songs and her style, and she seems like a pretty good person. But I don’t like her voice, which given that she’s a singer, is probably the most important piece. Yet, just about every song I hear on the radio that I don’t already know, sounds like her to me, so I suspect much of this is an aspect of my bionic hearing that my brain hasn’t figured out yet.
The Laurel/Yanny thing that took over the internet was absolutely fascinating to me. It happened to come at a time when I was already challenging myself with focusing on specific sounds, hearing dominance, and sound balance. The number of people saying how weird it is kind of astounded me because it’s what people with hearing loss deal with every day – and then I remembered that “normal” hearing people don’t have any reason to know about or understand the mental aspect of hearing.