Only place to go is down…

I’ve often said that if this is the best my hearing gets, I’m happy with it.  Well, we have definitely reached “the best” in one sense.  In another sense, it’s back to terrible.  Had my one year mapping yesterday, with a new audiologist, and as with every mapping, today I hate it.  The good news is that my speech recognition scores came in at 100%.
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One month.

I had my one month post-activation mapping and testing today. I might just be a rock star after all! There are so many sounds I had forgotten about that are coming back – like birds! Things that I knew logically made noise but I hadn’t heard so long that I pretty much forgot.

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Imagine…

“Imagine yourself in a room with just a few close friends you love, talking and laughing.  The conversation is quick and animated.  It is too swift for you to follow on their lips, too difficult for you to understand – because you are deaf. You sit in their midst with a frozen smile on your face, your cheeks aching, afraid to break the warm mood by telling them you are unable to understand. Your heart tightens and aches too.  You feel angry that you are once again shut out, angry at yourself for being deaf, and at the world for expecting you not to be..  Then, imagine another day, when you have a device implanted deep within your ear to help you to hear.  Imagine that with it, you hear words and phrases in the air without looking for them on people’s lips. You understand – not everything, but enough to feel a part of the group.  You hear birds that were once silent, music that was once noise.  Your cheeks thaw.  Your heart opens up.  Your anger melts, and you feel a sense of grace.”  – Beverly Biderman, Wired for Sound

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