No one is alone

I was out walking my dogs last night and ran across our neighbor Jack and his dog Mollie.  Jack and I have been talking for the past 6 months or so and he has a pretty profound hearing loss.  Unfortunately for him, it is getting worse and his audiologist has told him that hearing aids won’t help him – he needs a BAHA (bone-anchored hearing aid).  Last night, he decided to ask me what my surgery was like for my implant and admitted that he’s scared of the BAHA procedure.  This is why I tell my story:  so people like Jack know that they are not alone.
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Another brick falls

Over the past several months, I’ve been in a pretty bad depressive funk, including more social anxiety than usual and having to talk myself out of panic attacks every day before I start work. It hasn’t been easy, and I’ve been dealing with it and seeking treatment. But one thing I have always believed heavily in is the power of positive thought. This weekend I was reminded how much anxiety stems from my hearing and how fabulous, positive people can break through to me.
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Only place to go is down…

I’ve often said that if this is the best my hearing gets, I’m happy with it.  Well, we have definitely reached “the best” in one sense.  In another sense, it’s back to terrible.  Had my one year mapping yesterday, with a new audiologist, and as with every mapping, today I hate it.  The good news is that my speech recognition scores came in at 100%.
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From one deaf singer to another

Last night, deaf singer/songwriter Mandy Harvey came in 4th on America’s Got Talent. In case you’ve been living under a rock, Mandy went viral after her first performance. No less than 20 of my friends either shared it with me or tagged me in it saying how much she reminded them of me and how I persevered through my hearing loss. Everyone from Lady Gaga to Marlee Matlin tweeted how amazing she is, and she IS. Since she’s gone viral, I’ve had a lot of people commenting or asking me what I think, so here goes.

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Didn’t it rain?

This morning I had to sit in my car in the parking lot after my commute for a few minutes, just processing, absorbing a song that I’d just heard because it made me FEEL.  Wiping tears away because I was able to actually hear something so musically brilliant that it moved me – something that hasn’t happened much in the last 15 years since my hearing loss.  This recent hearing adventure has come from a rather unexpected place:  the blues, specifically as played by Hugh Laurie.  I love hearing again, because beauty of music like this heals me.
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